I
don’t know really know what to say, or feel, or do anymore. My emotions feel
like they’re on an infinite loop: devastation, sadness, anger, frustration,
helplessness, denial and then back to facing the bitter reality… my brother has
cancer. What should I feel right now? How can I help? The truth is there are no
rules or expectations when something like this happens. You go from moment to
moment, trying to be okay, but really all you’re doing is watching time slip
away from you. I’ve spent hours doing research online trying to find an answer…
but it’s a futile attempt isn’t it? It’s never only one person who’s a victim
of this horrible disease, it affects everyone who loves them too – and so I
just have to face it I guess.
It’s
been a bleak time for my family, so this week Ma and Pa organised a dinner for
my brother and his friends, and it didn’t go how I expected at all. I was
anticipating tears but instead, everyone was the happiest I’ve seen them in a
long time. With so much negativity surrounding our family, I guess we were all
just forced to focus on the positives of the situation, and cherish the time we
have together.
I’m
realising now that no matter what the situation, creating and sustaining
happiness is a choice, and when
everything seems to be going wrong, that’s all we have to hold on to – each and
every moment of happiness together.
So
this week, I’d like to share with you a quote from one of my favorite authors,
Haruki Murakami. I came across it a long time ago, and at that time it didn’t
make much sense to me, but now I feel it truly resonate within me: “Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional”.
I’d
like to leave you with that, because no matter how awful the circumstances,
there’s always something to be happy about.
That’s
it for this week, until next time…
XOXO
Fru Fru Shru
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